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Should I Take a Photo or a Breath?

I stand at the edge of the infinity pool, camera in one hand, emotion in the other.
Should I take a photo or a breath?
Is this brunch or breakdown?

The sun glints off the champagne glass like a staged apology.
I sip, not to taste, but to time.
Why do I glow only in unfamiliar beds?
The minibar whispers choices I never made back home.

Shop Sirius Zen Method loads on my screen like a mantra.
I want something hand-bound, quiet, and curated.
Luxury that feels like a prayer, not performance.

Should I moan behind first class curtain or in the silence of the room service tray?
Do I glow in Dubai—or filter out what I feel?

Read Proto Soul – Break.Code.Begin sits heavy in my carry-on.
I read it between gate changes and mirrored elevator rides.
Each sentence, a checkpoint my body never cleared.

Is this towel armor or admission?
Is my glow envy-coded in Capri, or do I just need something to hold onto?

How to cry in rose-scented oil
without looking like collapse?
Spa robes feel heavier when I’m alone in them.
Do I tip for silence or healing?
Is this body wrap hiding guilt?

Explore Viva Code – Crack.Flow.Flame plays in my headphones as I apply gloss I won’t speak through.
Do I blush with Chanel or with memory?
Is this serum a soft scream?

I pass the fitting rooms and stare at sapphire—does it soothe or provoke?
Do I want her necklace or her attention?
How to glow in ruby shame
without letting it ruin the neckline?

Is the boutique light more honest than the spa candle?
Do I cry post-facial because I’m clean or because I’m raw?

Shop Sirius Zen Method again—because sometimes I’d rather wrap a ritual than explain the ache.

I scroll between rings and regret.
Do I want emeralds or apology?
Does this bracelet whisper closure or defiance?

Read Proto Soul – Break.Code.Begin again—because some texts feel like someone watched me break without speaking.

And still, I pack the same scent,
spray behind knees instead of words.
Do I dress for fight or fantasy?
Is this shopping or seduction?

Explore Viva Code – Crack.Flow.Flame answers nothing, but holds me.

I skip the spa again.
I unwrap a chocolate left on the pillow.
I do not post.
I only breathe.


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