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Do I Ache Folding Her Socks?

There’s a tenderness in matching her bows at midnight—not because she’ll remember, but because I need to. It’s not about the ribbon. It’s about the moment. The offering. The softness I place onto her so I can feel it echo back. Sometimes I think motherhood is my second skin—stitched from the guilt, longing, and legacy I never voiced. It wraps around me in quiet hours. It tightens when I remember who I had to be, and loosens only when I let her be different. When I fold her socks, I don’t just fold fabric—I fold memory. I fold the girl I used to be. The one who waited, quietly, for someone to brush her hair with intention. Now I brush hers like a ritual. Each stroke says what I never heard: you’re worth this time. I dress her as if her bib’s colors could rewrite the palette of my past. I spray her pillow not just with lavender, but with memory. A scent meant to hold space for peace I still don’t fully know. Do I swaddle her—or am I really swaddling my own ache? Sometimes I catch her gig...