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Do I Want Her Gone or Just the Attention: Cravings, Curses & Chanel

There’s a difference between letting go—and wanting them to feel it.
Sometimes closure isn’t silence, but the echo they hear when you stop explaining.
I don’t always want him back.
Sometimes I just want him to ache.
Not loudly. Not dramatically.
Just enough to feel what I no longer carry.

Should I pretend to be with someone new—or simply move like I’m already adored?
Do I want his guilt, or the emptiness that lingers when no answer comes?
Is my absence a wound he notices, or a mirror he can’t face?

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I ask myself:
Do I want to kneel for him—or to be worshipped without asking?
Can red lace feel like armor?
Can luxury become a private cry for clarity?

Sometimes I light candles not for light, but for closure.
Each perfume bottle on my shelf holds a word I never spoke.
Not a spell, not a plea—just presence.
A reminder that I no longer chase what no longer chooses me.

Do sigils work on men—or is it the way I breathe that changes the air?
Between tarot decks and unread messages, I ask quieter questions:
Why do I still blush at both joy and shame?
Why do I crave her voice, her gaze, her silence?
Is this desire—or a memory still pulsing?

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On certain nights, I charge my rings with intention.
I don’t ask for love.
I spell it—softly.
In silence.
In scent.
In what I wear under moonlight, not for anyone, but as a ritual of self-remembrance.

I wrap longing in fabrics that listen.
I move through hallways like I’m being chosen by the air itself.
Not for their eyes.
For mine.

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