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How to Dine Without Devotion: Table Etiquette for Emotional Warfare

I don’t count calories.
I count what it costs to be desired at dessert.

Do I scan the menu for sugar or shame?
Is the soufflé a threat to my silence or an invitation to feel?
Sometimes I split cake like I’m splitting versions of myself.

Explore Viva Code – Crack.Flow.Flame taught me this:
Seduction isn’t in the bite. It’s in how long I wait to bite.

Is fruit a tool or a tease?
Do I pretend full in company?
Is pasta too honest for this room?

Sometimes I light candles not for ambiance—but to have someone to dine with.
I set the table for one and style my sadness in marble.

Shop Sirius Zen Method is not a boutique.
It’s how I whisper wealth in stillness.
Should I nap in a ballgown or pour wine for ghosts?
The robe I wear is less sleepwear, more armor.

I name my vases.
I ask the walls if they like my hair tonight.
I cry in manicured stillness, hoping the mirror approves.

Read Proto Soul – Break.Code.Begin is where I first understood:
Control is poured, not spoken.
Do I ache more when flowers bloom with no witness?

There are dinners and there are declarations.
How to sip when she’s watching?
How to blink softer than her compliment?
Is my toast an elevation or an escape?

Explore Viva Code – Crack.Flow.Flame reminded me:
Comparison is perfume—
and envy is lipstick coded in camellia red.

I eat slower now.
Not because I’m full.
Because I want the silence to last longer than her approval.

Shop Sirius Zen Method isn’t about fashion.
It’s about grace under gaze.
And the discipline of dressing pain like poise.


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